Vegas
The trip to Vegas was fun. I enjoyed seeing Jeannie and Paul again and meeting a new friend, Aaron. Lars did not like Vegas and we both agreed that if I want to go back I’ll be doing it with friends, that’s ok, Vegas isn’t everyone’s scene. I will say that Craftsteak was the best meal of the weekend-everyone agreed to that. I was surprised by how well I could keep up with everything, considering that in less than a month I will be getting transplant surgery.
Speaking of the transplant, I am starting to get nervous. I find out a little more each day as to what exactly is going to happen and its freaking me out. I can’t help but think, “what if this doesn’t work,” or “when will it fail and I have to do this again?’ I have made it successfully this far able to push these thoughts out, but lately they keep coming back stronger each day. I want to think that everything will work out but honestly, we know that just isn’t going to happen, I mean, the transplant could work just fine, but my life is going to always going to suck a little. I’m not complaining, just being realistic. My life is never going to be the way it once was and that is something I just have to accept.
I wish I had magical powers to make it all OK.
Change is good. If life stayed the same it would be boring. Its gonna work. You gotta believe in yourself……you made it this long….why would things change, eh? We do over 200 of these a year with over a 98% success rate. Those are great odds, Vegas girl. And a good portion of failed transplants stem from non-compliance with meds.
You can do this. It will be amazing. Your life will NOT suck. It will be wonderful.